Well, I've reached it. That dreaded middle schmiddle part of my book that makes me extremely happy (that I've actually made it this far) And the next moment I'm besieged with thoughts that I have absolutely not one wit of talent and what on earth made me possibly think that I could write a 70,000 word novel.
I mean really.
Why? What makes me so different?
Nothing, except that I know that I have to go on, (whether or not I have any talent, no matter how tired I am, no matter how much I would rather be mopping my kitchen floor and let me tell you I hate to mop so that is saying something about my ability to procrastinater)no matter how slowly that might be until I can regain my balance via good self talks.
It's painful to write right now. I've entered the land of doubt, where the forest is full of nay saying whispers that taunt me every time I pick up a blank piece of paper or turn on the computer. Am I still intrigued with my characters? Yes. So, it's not really the story that has me worried but only my ability to tell it well, to make the reader feel like they are truly in the thick of things with my characters. That is my worry.
Is it silly? Yes. Does it still bother me? Yes. Am I still writing? Barely LOL but yes.
So for all you out there stuck 'in the middle' with me, stay true to the course and keep writing. Throw mental fire bombs at the nasty whispers that tickle your ears and ignore anyone who makes you veer off track. That includes your self.
Because sometimes we are our own worst enemies.
P.S. Positive self talks always seem to work wonders with me. Well, that and gummi bears.
Word Count update: 34288
Labels: and fun, my ability to procrastinate, Rough Draft Challenge
1 Comments:
Which book are you working on right now? You will do just fine, you are a very good writer. Hugs.
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